Fever

I would like to have a fever now. It would be nice to have an excuse to lie in bed all day. And wrapped in blankets. How much better can life get?
I must be retarded.

僕は友達が少ない – 二人の季節

This is how I pass my time instead of writing my essays.

窓越し歩く君の背中　ずっと見つめてた
今より強くなりそうな雨から　目を背けた
君が近すぎて気づかなかった
夢でもだ　さよならが痛む
今頃わかったよ　君の涙で
もう二度と会えない　君を傷つけない
約束もできない　引き止める手はもうない

The above is the part of the song that was played during episode 6 (yozora’s and sena’s duet). I’m pretty sure it’s correct.

移ろう　雲に流れ
どこか浮かぶ　愛しい笑顔
どうして遠ざかってしまったんだろう
二人のとき　ああ
僕が弱すぎて　守れなかった
切り裂くように降り続く雨
今頃わかったよ　君の瞳に
映るのは強さで　包み込む言葉で
僕の胸の中に　それはいなくて

あのとき君が最後につぶやくように
志望に出した一言を繰り返す
涙声の「じゃあね」
赤くなった方法に
伸ばしたかったこの手が
ひどく汚れて見えて
僕は瞳　季節を耐えた

The bit played during ep 12. I’ve marked the parts I’m unsure of in red.

Utsurou – well yes, it’s definitely utsurou. Just wondering if I guessed the intended meaning and consequently the kanji correctly.
kiru sakubou – uh, I’m not sure if it’s kiru. Pretty sure about sakubou (something about 初一十五).
houhou – not sure if it’s houhou >.>

An attempted translation, to convince myself that I haven’t transcribed nonsense (and lol stfu about pop lyrics being nonsense anyway):

Walking past the window   I kept staring at your back
I turned my eyes away from the rain that seemed like it was getting stronger
You were too close   I didn’t realise
Even in my dreams   Saying goodbye hurt
Now I’ve finally understood   from your tears
We can’t meet again   I can’t hurt you again
I can’t keep my promise   I can’t restrain you anymore

Let’s move   Flow with the clouds
From somewhere   that beloved smile surfaced
I wonder why we ever separated
The times we spent together   ah
I was too weak   and couldn’t protect you
The rain continues falling as though it’s going to cut us into pieces
Now I’ve finally understood   in your eyes
are reflected strength   words, all wrapped up
In my heart   those aren’t present

In the way you murmured to me that final time
I’ll repeat those words that affirm my desires
The teary “see you”
The way they’ve turned red
The hand I wanted to extend to you
You can see how terribly they’ve been sullied
In my eyes I’ve borne   seasons

Man. This sucks.

How to make friends and profit

Cryptic posts

I don’t always sleep late

but when I do, I do it all week and get more emo and moody every day.
:(

First world problems

My entire day has been filled with them.
“Damn! It’s too hot! Aircon plz!”
“Shit why does phone reception at jurong bird park suck so much?”
“Arrgh should I take chicken or fish for the free lunch?”
“Omg which fucking expensive earphones should I buy?”
The last one x100

I suck.

… but anyway, help me. GR07 OR HF5?

Rage

Fuck. I am now angry because of that retarded “women who dont[sic] cook” trend on twitter.

I NEED TO LEARN TO CHILL.
Not that it really matters. I never do anything worthwhile about the things that work me up anyway.

Google calendar

I <3 google calendar.

My calendar seems unfortunately full this and next month, because of all the extras ( >:( ) but also because of all the leave and off clearing I filled in :)

There’s a really big gap between february and now, when I decided maybe I should keep my calendar somewhere better than a lousy piece of paper printed off outlook 2003 and kept in my bag. February, when I just gave up almost everything. :/

Why bother?

You put in lots of effort and maybe at the end you collect one day off (highly unlikely, but it has happened. More likely you just don’t get anything though). Nobody even considers you (or your colleague who admittedly does more work than you and hasn’t screwed up recently) for CFC promotion (this can be attributed to a problem with the department structure and the lack of official NSF positions in it, but I’m still bitter about it. Besides if you really plan on long-term use of NSFs is it so hard to put in some actual positions for them? Obviously nobody cares enough).

But you screw up one time and they happily throw the book and 7 extras at you.

Why, in this organisation, is reward so incommensurate with punishment?
Why, in this capacity, is pay, oops, I’m sorry, “allowance”, so incommensurate with work done/actual requirements?
Why, in this country, are obligations so unfairly piled onto one group? (and because of a fucking penis – wow what a great reason)

I don’t know. But I do know I’m really sick of this. This is going to be a pretty lousy week, and my end of year is really going to suck (let’s give him duty on the 24th, 26th and 31st! Hey at least we left him the 25th! How nice of us!).

Pass quickly so I can say goodbye and fuck you very much to this piece of shit organisation, fucking 55 more days.

Stupid, ignorant fool

It worries me that for so much of my time with you, I never realised just how wonderful and amazing and sweet you were being.

Funny dream

I had a really, really weird dream last night.

And I can’t help but feel that I did something highly wrong and evil, even though it was just a dream.

:(